The Blair Waldorf.

Allow me to grow…

Alekxandra — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 03:19:50 +0000

http://rocketgirl.org

On la la la love.

Alekxandra — Mon, 07 Sep 2009 12:00:19 +0000

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Blair: Why aren’t you in Europe?
Chuck: I was in Paris, but only to get your favorite macaroons from Pierre Hermé.
Blair: And Germany?
Chuck: To pick up your favorite Falke stockings. You know how I adore them.
Blair: What are you doing here then?
Chuck: You were right. I was a coward running away again. But everywhere I went…you caught up with me. So I had to come back.
Blair: I want to believe you… But I can’t. You’ve hurt me too many times.
Chuck: You can believe me this time.
Blair: That’s it?
Chuck: I love you too.
Blair: But can you say it twice? No I’m serious. Say it twice.
Chuck: I love you…I love you. There’s three. Four… I love you…

This is the best Chuck-Blair scene so far. I must say that it summed up everything beautiful about the Chair romance. I was reminded of this scene as I was daydreaming about the perfect love story. Despite the many times I have played this on Youtube, or read the lines, it never failed to make me feel light. It was, for me, perfect.

Truth be told, I had not yet laid out the perfect real-life love story for myself but the overview goes something like this: Breakfast at Tiffany’s (minus Holly’s peculiar job, cigarettes, and prison relations) + Twilight (minus vampires) + Star Wars (minus technology) + Pride and Prejudice + The OC (Seth and Summer, Taylor and Ryan) + Harry Potter (Harry and Ginny – okay fine! I kinda like their story na) + GOSSIP GIRL (Chuck and Blair, definitely – this should be the one that stands out, including the soundtrack, the setting, the dialogues, and the wardrobe!) = my la la la love story.

The issue of love has never ceased to take a part on my mind. I guess I had never really given up on it, despite the many failures I have experienced. I do not wish to get into a relationship just because almost everyone I know is in one. I wish to get into a relationship because I feel like I am deprived of it. The absolute longing for someone who loves me for who I am (aside from my family and friends) is an unfathomable feeling for me. It is always there, hovering above me.

I have always wanted someone to hold my hand, and give me white lilies. Someone I can talk to, day or night, and would never get tired of hearing my endless ramblings that better deserved to be written here or on a Fully Booked journal. I wanted someone to speak to me in the tongues of timeless Edward Cullen, the endearing Seth Cohen, the direct Anakin Skywalker, the awkward Harry Potter, the honest Mr. Darcy, the sincere Landon Carter, the sweet Nick Jonas (haha!), and the ever-unsuspecting Chuck Bass. I wanted someone to kiss me on my forehead, caress my hair, and hug me like a Teddy bear. I wish to be able to discover more of my life and of the world and share it with a different person. But more than anything else, I want a different kind of love.

I am too young to say “I’m too tired of being single”, because then again, there are things you won’t be able to experience when you’re not in a commitment. But I do feel like there is something I desire for besides my romantic independence.

How long must I wait for my personal Chuck Bass to arrive? Because at the end of the day, the thought of having to share the details of my life with someone is something that I have been anticipating in a long, long time now. And I feel like I can no longer wait.

Things I Loved Thursday

Alekxandra — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 16:10:09 +0000

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Here again is the list of things that got me smiling all week.

* The hottie who played table tennis for pink team. (:
* The Click Five, Kyle Patrick in specific
* a new domain on the works : http://rocketgirl.org – special mention to the brains behind http://xis.in
* The interview that took place awhile ago – will post what it’s about until I get the results. Clue: magazine
* a photo – in relation to the item above
* writing stories
* reading tweexcore‘s blog entries
* viewing wonderful photos on Flickr – they got me inspired
* finally posted a photo for wardroberemix.com
*Tumblr tumblr tumblr! La-la-looove.

How about you dear reader, what made you happy this week?

September the first.

Alekxandra — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 14:29:43 +0000

It’s the first day of September, and as I sit in front of this old computer, images of memories from the past start to flicker inside my head. While some remained for only a few seconds, some remained prominent. Perhaps they were the ones that had huge bearings on my perceptions and way of life.

Why am I suddenly feeling nostalgic? Because it’s the beginning of the ‘-ber months’, and before we knew it, it’s already December, and another year would have passed. It feels strange. It seemed like it was only yesterday that I started college, and turned 17.

What have I done this past 8 months? Have I been productive enough as I have resolved during the start of the year? Or have I once again fallen into the trap of becoming my usually old, procrastinating self?

I do feel in a way that I have satisfied at least a small percentage of my resolutions, and actually progressed. But then, I am slightly obsessive compulsive, and have neurotic tendencies. No doubt I will find something wrong with myself or with what I had done.

It seems kind of ironic when I have so many plans for myself in the near future, and yet I would like to take life as it is. In simpler terms, how is it that I have so many ambitions, when one of them is being happy-go-lucky? I wish to attain balance. Hopefully, in the next four months, I will.

Thoughts tonight.

Alekxandra — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 11:06:26 +0000

Second post for the day. I have so many things to do, and have only little time to do them. But then, thoughts are rabling inside my head, I wanted to take a moment and clear my head.

Tomorrow I will be going back to school after my not-so well-spent three-day holiday break. I feel like the three days have gone and past so fleetingly I haven’t even had time to pause and enjoy it.

The following week, meanwhile, will be extremely busy for me, and almost everyone at St. Scho. It’s intramurals week and no one is less determined to win for their teams. I myself am psyched up, I just wish that I have ample energy to move further with the activities lined up for me this week both in and out of school.

In other news, I have been browsing through Flickr these past three days, and I must confess that my desire to learn more about photography has sparked once more. I do not have any ambitions of becoming a full-time photographer, but I do wish that I could take beautiful photos. I want the cheapest Nikon/Canon DSLR that you can find on the market. The cheaper, the better. I do not wish to splurge on some hot stuff, and not knowing what to do with it. I just want a mean DSLR for my own, so I can finally submit decent photos for wardroberemix.com, and display girly, lacy, dreamy, and lovely photographs.

Oh, and I am watching the news right now. Some people get too emotional about politics. Specifically about them wanting Noynoy Aquino to run for presidency. Sometimes, as much as I don’t want to, I get tired of life in my country particularly with how politics is ran. As much as I want to believe the good in everyone of us, the Philippine government has hurt the Filipinos too much.

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Alekxandra — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 04:48:48 +0000

Her magnificent red shoes
has everyone amused.
For Dorothy was her name,
and to the Oz she came.

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Jealousy

Alekxandra — Sun, 30 Aug 2009 11:12:54 +0000

You know what? I hate that evil green-eyed monster of jealousy.

Ever since my routine interview last Wednesday, I have been fine at maintaing my cool. But then, for some reason, it just magically popped out again after reading the weblog of a specific person (as if I’m going to say who s/he is). My counselor* reminded me that it wouldn’t be easy separating the “Sacred I” from all the things that make it wounded. But I have been doing great lately and it makes me furious that I find myself suddenly so vulnerable to envy.

I want to scream: I get good grades, almost always top of the class! I have an interview on Thursday for an internship! I have great fashion sense! My communication skills are far better than yours, and I have a mean weblog entry in comparison! I enjoy the course I am in, while you don’t enjoy yours. I hate the fact that you’re richer than I am, and you have waaay more money than I do! I hate the fact that you spend it on useless stuff. If I were you, I’d donate it to DTC, then buy better-looking clothes with more class. In short, I am better than you are!

I thought it might be better to get that out of my chest and actually yell at that person. But then again, that would be mean and exaggerated. My friends have always said that I am assertive,but deep down, I feel just like a little girl lost in a big world with bigger people. I have so many insecurities, and I am really trying my best to get rid of them. Just not too soon. Eventually. I do understand the fact that nobody is perfect. And I am no exemption.

* By counselor, I meant the school’s resident guidance counselor. Routine interviews ar required of us Scholasticans. Why would I need a counselor when I have a personal one at home? Aka Psychologist supermom.

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Alekxandra — Sat, 29 Aug 2009 10:12:45 +0000

Dear love, don’t leave me
I know I’m wrong, I’m sorry.
We’re meant to be together
Let’s make this last forever

To be honest with you dear reader, I find this verse completely uninspired. But even though, I thought I liked posting the photo, so here it is.

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Friday 5: Tolerance

Alekxandra — Fri, 28 Aug 2009 14:37:58 +0000

This week has been extremely tiring. Besides my scholastic pursuits, there are cheerdance practices for the next week, Intramurals week. It’s been two years since I have been part of a pep squad. I was hesitant to join at first for I know I have to squeeze my schedule to make time. But truthfully, now I adore practices. I missed dancing, and even more, collaborating steps. I also managed to learn two stunts: herkey, and tuck – that in addition to cartwheel. I am also part of the Chess team, but I haven’t even practiced. Despite my schedule, I have an itch to make time for weblogging. In the meantime, allow me to share with you my first Friday 5.

How’s your tolerance for alcohol?

Very good. I don’t drink alcoholic beverage. Batch parties always involve drinking but I get use to it.

How’s your tolerance for noisy neighbors?

Which reminds me of my neighbors who never fail to execute their Weekend Karaoke Nights. I sleep. They’re really bad singers. Now hush, and don’t tell them I said that.

How’s your tolerance for physical pain?

Very low. I am squeamish. I nearly faint at the sight of blood, at the mention of diseases in the body, viruses, medical gore, and more of the stuff in that league.

How’s your tolerance for intolerant people?

That depends. If they get to me, I tell them frankly, and in a nice way.

How’s your tolerance for bad music?

I cover my ears. What else is there to do?

Things I Loved Thursday

Alekxandra — Thu, 27 Aug 2009 15:35:34 +0000

Weekly tabulation of things that made me smile this week. In reference to tweexcore‘s original version.

* Listening to David Archuleta’s “Touch My Hand” – Archie has to know I’m falling in love with him every single minute of every single day. He has to be my goody two-shoes version of Chuck Bass.

* Cheap chocolate ice cream or mango juice tetrapack

* Strawberry Dewberrys – my original favorite is the Blueberry. But I’m getting used to the strawberries.

* Cheerdance practice – it’s been two years since I last joined the batch pep, and I’m actually enjoying it! I can do the herkey, tuck, and cartwheel. I will be lifted, too. Can’t wait for Friday next week!

* Planning dates with friends – note: more on this next week. PS. Really, cannot wait for Friday next week!

* My Twitbuds, @ziathegreat and @FSHNYRSTBLTS

* Minutes spent at the Library – I am a nerd, and it’s the ultimate nerd sanctuary.

* Twilight news – what’s this about KStew and RPattz’s burgeoning love? Ahem?

* Meet the Robinsons – it’s my brother’s all-time favorite movie and it’s currently on repeat in the DVD Player. I love the soundtrack.

* Gossip Girl re blogs and spoil ers

* WINNING THE SPECIAL PRIZE FOR XIS.IN – wahoo! But I haven’t decided what prize to get yet.

Last but not the least…

* Everything Chuck and Blair – IKR!

How about you my dear reader? What things made you smile this week?