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On la la la love.
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Blair: Why aren’t you in Europe?
Chuck: I was in Paris, but only to get your favorite macaroons from Pierre Hermé.
Blair: And Germany?
Chuck: To pick up your favorite Falke stockings. You know how I adore them.
Blair: What are you doing here then?
Chuck: You were right. I was a coward running away again. But everywhere I went…you caught up with me. So I had to come back.
Blair: I want to believe you… But I can’t. You’ve hurt me too many times.
Chuck: You can believe me this time.
Blair: That’s it?
Chuck: I love you too.
Blair: But can you say it twice? No I’m serious. Say it twice.
Chuck: I love you…I love you. There’s three. Four… I love you…
This is the best Chuck-Blair scene so far. I must say that it summed up everything beautiful about the Chair romance. I was reminded of this scene as I was daydreaming about the perfect love story. Despite the many times I have played this on Youtube, or read the lines, it never failed to make me feel light. It was, for me, perfect.
Truth be told, I had not yet laid out the perfect real-life love story for myself but the overview goes something like this: Breakfast at Tiffany’s (minus Holly’s peculiar job, cigarettes, and prison relations) + Twilight (minus vampires) + Star Wars (minus technology) + Pride and Prejudice + The OC (Seth and Summer, Taylor and Ryan) + Harry Potter (Harry and Ginny – okay fine! I kinda like their story na) + GOSSIP GIRL (Chuck and Blair, definitely – this should be the one that stands out, including the soundtrack, the setting, the dialogues, and the wardrobe!) = my la la la love story.
The issue of love has never ceased to take a part on my mind. I guess I had never really given up on it, despite the many failures I have experienced. I do not wish to get into a relationship just because almost everyone I know is in one. I wish to get into a relationship because I feel like I am deprived of it. The absolute longing for someone who loves me for who I am (aside from my family and friends) is an unfathomable feeling for me. It is always there, hovering above me.
I have always wanted someone to hold my hand, and give me white lilies. Someone I can talk to, day or night, and would never get tired of hearing my endless ramblings that better deserved to be written here or on a Fully Booked journal. I wanted someone to speak to me in the tongues of timeless Edward Cullen, the endearing Seth Cohen, the direct Anakin Skywalker, the awkward Harry Potter, the honest Mr. Darcy, the sincere Landon Carter, the sweet Nick Jonas (haha!), and the ever-unsuspecting Chuck Bass. I wanted someone to kiss me on my forehead, caress my hair, and hug me like a Teddy bear. I wish to be able to discover more of my life and of the world and share it with a different person. But more than anything else, I want a different kind of love.
I am too young to say “I’m too tired of being single”, because then again, there are things you won’t be able to experience when you’re not in a commitment. But I do feel like there is something I desire for besides my romantic independence.
How long must I wait for my personal Chuck Bass to arrive? Because at the end of the day, the thought of having to share the details of my life with someone is something that I have been anticipating in a long, long time now. And I feel like I can no longer wait.
Things I Loved Thursday
Here again is the list of things that got me smiling all week.
* The hottie who played table tennis for pink team. (:
* The Click Five, Kyle Patrick in specific
* a new domain on the works : http://rocketgirl.org – special mention to the brains behind http://xis.in
* The interview that took place awhile ago – will post what it’s about until I get the results. Clue: magazine
* a photo – in relation to the item above
* writing stories
* reading tweexcore‘s blog entries
* viewing wonderful photos on Flickr – they got me inspired
* finally posted a photo for wardroberemix.com
*Tumblr tumblr tumblr! La-la-looove.
How about you dear reader, what made you happy this week?
September the first.
It’s the first day of September, and as I sit in front of this old computer, images of memories from the past start to flicker inside my head. While some remained for only a few seconds, some remained prominent. Perhaps they were the ones that had huge bearings on my perceptions and way of life.
Why am I suddenly feeling nostalgic? Because it’s the beginning of the ‘-ber months’, and before we knew it, it’s already December, and another year would have passed. It feels strange. It seemed like it was only yesterday that I started college, and turned 17.
What have I done this past 8 months? Have I been productive enough as I have resolved during the start of the year? Or have I once again fallen into the trap of becoming my usually old, procrastinating self?
I do feel in a way that I have satisfied at least a small percentage of my resolutions, and actually progressed. But then, I am slightly obsessive compulsive, and have neurotic tendencies. No doubt I will find something wrong with myself or with what I had done.
It seems kind of ironic when I have so many plans for myself in the near future, and yet I would like to take life as it is. In simpler terms, how is it that I have so many ambitions, when one of them is being happy-go-lucky? I wish to attain balance. Hopefully, in the next four months, I will.
Thoughts tonight.
Second post for the day. I have so many things to do, and have only little time to do them. But then, thoughts are rabling inside my head, I wanted to take a moment and clear my head.
Tomorrow I will be going back to school after my not-so well-spent three-day holiday break. I feel like the three days have gone and past so fleetingly I haven’t even had time to pause and enjoy it.
The following week, meanwhile, will be extremely busy for me, and almost everyone at St. Scho. It’s intramurals week and no one is less determined to win for their teams. I myself am psyched up, I just wish that I have ample energy to move further with the activities lined up for me this week both in and out of school.
In other news, I have been browsing through Flickr these past three days, and I must confess that my desire to learn more about photography has sparked once more. I do not have any ambitions of becoming a full-time photographer, but I do wish that I could take beautiful photos. I want the cheapest Nikon/Canon DSLR that you can find on the market. The cheaper, the better. I do not wish to splurge on some hot stuff, and not knowing what to do with it. I just want a mean DSLR for my own, so I can finally submit decent photos for wardroberemix.com, and display girly, lacy, dreamy, and lovely photographs.
Oh, and I am watching the news right now. Some people get too emotional about politics. Specifically about them wanting Noynoy Aquino to run for presidency. Sometimes, as much as I don’t want to, I get tired of life in my country particularly with how politics is ran. As much as I want to believe the good in everyone of us, the Philippine government has hurt the Filipinos too much.
